I have journaled off and on most of my life. I have many notebooks that have a few pages filled with musings or a catching up of the last two years of where I was emotionally in life at the point. Then it all stopped. I am sad that I didn’t journal throughout my highs and lows of my 30’s. Now in my mid-40’s I recognize the importance of journaling as a ritual.
Currently, I have found a notebook that feels good to write in. I have decided to consolidate all the notebooks I started and stopped over the years and to re-write the few journal entries in my current journal. They are however entered in the back and have flipped the journal upside down to distinguish between current and past timelines if this makes sense. It has been wildly cathartic to write word for word sentences I wrote in my 20’s to early 30’s. I have a new appreciation of who I was back then. A little more empathy, understanding, kindness towards myself that I never gave permission to before. I have grown wiser, smarter, funnier and more sarcastic with age.
I am grateful to have found your Substack page. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. I would love for you to pull a Tarot card on my behalf. Cheers! 😁
What you are doing with your old journals is really cool! I want to write a little more about what can be done with our old journals for a future post, and that is a great example. It's very enlightening to read what older versions of ourselves felt and thought, if we are open to and ready for that.
I pulled cards for you today from The Modern Witch Tarot deck. I say cards because two of them fell out at the same time, so I think you are meant to receive both messages! The cards are the King of Cups and the Five of Cups. Cups are all about our emotional life, and I imagine you are stirring up a lot of emotions with your current journaling practice. The King of Cups is calm, cool, collected, and observant of the wave of emotions, rather than being overtaken by them. From this I get that your practice is helping you be much kinder to yourself, both the current and past version of you, and you should keep going with this same level of gentleness! Meanwhile, the Five of Cups is more about mourning a loss. I feel like this is tied to your disappointment around not journaling as much in your 30s, and only just coming back to it now. Continue to be kind to yourself, calling in that King of Cups energy. It's okay to feel sad about drifting away from your practice, but also remember there were probably reasons that that needed to happen. Maybe you needed the break. And now you can come back with so much more compassion and wisdom.
The 5 of Cups may also indicate a recent loss or disappointment in your life, and this is a reminder that it's okay to mourn and fully process that loss. You will come out on the other side of this stronger and more balanced emotionally.
Thanks Marcy😊 This message did resonate for me. Hope you are having a lovely weekend.
I have journaled off and on most of my life. I have many notebooks that have a few pages filled with musings or a catching up of the last two years of where I was emotionally in life at the point. Then it all stopped. I am sad that I didn’t journal throughout my highs and lows of my 30’s. Now in my mid-40’s I recognize the importance of journaling as a ritual.
Currently, I have found a notebook that feels good to write in. I have decided to consolidate all the notebooks I started and stopped over the years and to re-write the few journal entries in my current journal. They are however entered in the back and have flipped the journal upside down to distinguish between current and past timelines if this makes sense. It has been wildly cathartic to write word for word sentences I wrote in my 20’s to early 30’s. I have a new appreciation of who I was back then. A little more empathy, understanding, kindness towards myself that I never gave permission to before. I have grown wiser, smarter, funnier and more sarcastic with age.
I am grateful to have found your Substack page. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. I would love for you to pull a Tarot card on my behalf. Cheers! 😁
Hi Janetta! I am so happy to have you here.
What you are doing with your old journals is really cool! I want to write a little more about what can be done with our old journals for a future post, and that is a great example. It's very enlightening to read what older versions of ourselves felt and thought, if we are open to and ready for that.
I pulled cards for you today from The Modern Witch Tarot deck. I say cards because two of them fell out at the same time, so I think you are meant to receive both messages! The cards are the King of Cups and the Five of Cups. Cups are all about our emotional life, and I imagine you are stirring up a lot of emotions with your current journaling practice. The King of Cups is calm, cool, collected, and observant of the wave of emotions, rather than being overtaken by them. From this I get that your practice is helping you be much kinder to yourself, both the current and past version of you, and you should keep going with this same level of gentleness! Meanwhile, the Five of Cups is more about mourning a loss. I feel like this is tied to your disappointment around not journaling as much in your 30s, and only just coming back to it now. Continue to be kind to yourself, calling in that King of Cups energy. It's okay to feel sad about drifting away from your practice, but also remember there were probably reasons that that needed to happen. Maybe you needed the break. And now you can come back with so much more compassion and wisdom.
The 5 of Cups may also indicate a recent loss or disappointment in your life, and this is a reminder that it's okay to mourn and fully process that loss. You will come out on the other side of this stronger and more balanced emotionally.
I hope this message resonates with you!