Marcy you can be so incredibly proud of yourself for fully stepping up for yourself - and with it your family and close surrounding who will benefit from being with the full um compromised Marcy.
And May I say how grateful I am for your words as I am feeling them deeply myself as I came to exactly this conclusion a couple months ago, envisioning pregnancy number 2! I worked so hard throughout pregnancy nr1 and grew a bit resentful of work and exactly like you don’t desire more people to work with (despite desiring more sign ups and money) because I truly long for following my own passion and creations.
Now comes the tricky bit: I have carved out time recently to mainly focus on writing and my rituals only to notice how much I self sabotage by distracting myself. It’s this part that is afraid of not knowing who I am without all the work that need doing or gets recognitions hence why I resonate so much with your words! Let’s keep reminding and motivating us to stay in our lane, and honour our uncompromised selves 🙏✨⚪️
Oh, I totally understand the self-sabotage too! My favorite self-sabotage tool appears to currently be perfectionism. I'm still holding myself to these intense standards, as if there is still a boss or client who wants something in just such a way within a specific amount of time. And of course, with limited time and energy right now, perfectionism really holds me up from getting my work out there (likely cause I'm still a bit afraid to share it). And the desire for that recognition also fuels the drive for perfectionism. As always, I'm reminded of that statement, "Wherever you go, there you are." There are always still those inner demons to confront...appropriate then that my Tarot card of the year this year is The Devil. Time to see it, confront it, make the changes, and as you say, "stay in our lanes"!
Marcy you can be so incredibly proud of yourself for fully stepping up for yourself - and with it your family and close surrounding who will benefit from being with the full um compromised Marcy.
And May I say how grateful I am for your words as I am feeling them deeply myself as I came to exactly this conclusion a couple months ago, envisioning pregnancy number 2! I worked so hard throughout pregnancy nr1 and grew a bit resentful of work and exactly like you don’t desire more people to work with (despite desiring more sign ups and money) because I truly long for following my own passion and creations.
Now comes the tricky bit: I have carved out time recently to mainly focus on writing and my rituals only to notice how much I self sabotage by distracting myself. It’s this part that is afraid of not knowing who I am without all the work that need doing or gets recognitions hence why I resonate so much with your words! Let’s keep reminding and motivating us to stay in our lane, and honour our uncompromised selves 🙏✨⚪️
Oh, I totally understand the self-sabotage too! My favorite self-sabotage tool appears to currently be perfectionism. I'm still holding myself to these intense standards, as if there is still a boss or client who wants something in just such a way within a specific amount of time. And of course, with limited time and energy right now, perfectionism really holds me up from getting my work out there (likely cause I'm still a bit afraid to share it). And the desire for that recognition also fuels the drive for perfectionism. As always, I'm reminded of that statement, "Wherever you go, there you are." There are always still those inner demons to confront...appropriate then that my Tarot card of the year this year is The Devil. Time to see it, confront it, make the changes, and as you say, "stay in our lanes"!