Do you ever fear losing it all?

Your Journal Prompts This Week:
 

What makes me feel secure in life?

What do I fear would happen if I lost that security?

How can I address this fear in a healthy way?

Trust in the Universe.
The Universe will provide.
Trust in Yourself.
YOU will provide.

What gives you a sense of security?

For me, I hate to admit that I equate having money with security. It was how I was raised: go to fancy expensive school, get good grades, get better job, make more money, be set for life.

Family, friends, and my own natural gifts or talents are also sources of security that I don't want to lose. And perhaps for you, a greater fear exists around losing those in some capacity. But financial security has been top of mind for me during this first year of my business, and especially as I prepare for my unpaid maternity leave. I am facing the reality that my business isn't doing as well as I want it to, and I fear at some point, I may need to make some difficult decisions in an effort to avoid what I see as "losing it all." 

As I was struggling with this fear, the above message in bold came to me. I was editing my client Rachel Larraine Crawford's podcast, Bewitching the Home. She was interviewing an artist, Fay Ray, and they were talking about choosing to live the life of a full time artist or creative. Both women expressed that part of their resiliency in leading this life of the creative is that they do not have a fear of "losing it all" or of not having anything. They know if that ever happened, they'd just pick back up and begin again.

A light turned on inside of me when they said this. That light showed me just how much fear has been running my life, and that I am holding onto the belief that if I were to "lose it all," that would be the end of my story. The idea that I could get back up and begin again, that I would even have the right or ability to do so, hadn't crossed my mind. And that's because I've been too lost in the fear of reaching that point.

Now my focus is turning to how to address and acknowledge this fear, so I can work with it rather than against it.

What security blanket are you afraid of losing? Explore it with the journal prompts above, and as always, feel free to share your insights with me.

With much love & gratitude,
Marcy

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